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Dennis the Menace.'s avatar

Sounds like you have a good plan for achieving and maintaining serenity.

Molly M's avatar

Carol, I am you in so many ways. Perhaps there are even more of us, living in solitude though we love people, and preferring solitude though we crave connection. I'm glad you have your pup ❤️. Reach out if you need someone to talk to.

Jim Evans's avatar

Prayer and knowing Jesus is a tremendous source of comfort and peace for me.

Willena Jeane Belden's avatar

I can identity with your words. I am not living in a camper van I am still in my home, alone at 76 for the first time in my life. Contemplating my next step in the world. I am financially struggling to get by. What do I do? It is both a good and bad time and I don't know what I want. I have never had this freedom but my body is not cooperating. I am unable to do what I need to physically. I like my time alone but I miss my family. They are to busy with their own lives to help me.

Stay safe and enjoy your time in the desert. I enjoy reading about it all!

Patrick LaRose's avatar

When you compared the physical space to the emotional space, you had me. This is such a true statement. It is amazing how in a small space (like a van), everything has its place, and when anything is out of place, it can feel chaotic. But, here is where there is truth ... being on the road and/or living small expands your emotional space. That concept may be hard to understand for someone simply reading and not living it. I have lived it and totally get it. Thank you for expanding my emotional space with this writing.

Judi Lynne Judy, M.A.'s avatar

Hi Carol, I’m so glad to read your writing here. I experience a kind of loneliness myself, even though I still have my husband and young adult daughter near me on and off, when they are not working or at school. I think we are living in a culture we did not evolve for-the kind of isolation many people experience, even in relation to other people, I think has to do with our lack of village life, where we all literally needed one another for survival in daily tasks-in hunting and gathering, in making the few things we needed to survive in the world, in keeping fire going, in cooking together. 200 or so years, isn’t enough time for our brains and bodies to evolve differently. And I think despite scientific thoughts on the subject, who doesn’t need a hug and a really good friend or 2 to share coffee with, to share one’s heart with? Especially in a small space. I’m in my van each day alone and I love just leaving my little room and getting a bon bon from the local chocolate shop, and chatting with the young person who works there. Wishing you well, and writing you back, in cure of loneliness, and with gratitude for your open hearted writing here! Warmly, Judi